Snowed In

Here in the Blue Ridge Mountains, Boone, to be more specific, the weather is calling for 10+ inches of snow tomorrow through Thursday afternoon.

I. AM. SO. EXCITED. HOLY. COW!!!!!!!

I am also incredibly anxious.

Paul is supposed to be coming up Thursday night and would be arriving around midnight-1am. This makes me anxious because the people hired to clear the roads wouldn't have had much time to work on clearing the roads by the time he's up here and I'm not sure if he has much experience driving in snow like this before.

I just pray that God will watch over him, keep him awake and alert, and help him to get here safely. If we need food, thank goodness Ingles is only a 10 minute walk away.

We may have to have a Valentines Day date indoors with snow softly falling outside :)

How cute :)

Time

Over the years I have recognized that time is a stagnant thing. It is always the same amount of measurement, not caring if you're spending a leisurely afternoon having a picnic with your significant other or anxiously drumming your fingers, waiting to hear back from the doctor to see if your grandfather is going to make it out of surgery.

Even though this is true, it always feels like time starts spinning faster and faster and faster and faster the longer you are alive.

When I was about six years old, a couple hours spent in the humid heat of an Illinois summer racing my stroller and doll down the driveway against my sister's felt like half a lifetime. Now that I'm older, a whole day spent enjoying myself on the Blue Ridge Parkway feels like the whimsical blink of an eye.

I don't understand this phenomenon and I don't think I ever will.

My application for graduation was just sent in to be reviewed. College graduation. In what feels like a short second I will be a college graduate. My mind can barely wrap itself around that terrifying realization.

...in one short second I will have no idea where life will take me.

I am a Bird

My life is a roller coaster and I am hovering on the top of the first drop....

One hundred and ninety-nine days until I graduate from college with a degree in Commercial Photography. Holy. Crap. I will be basically done with all of my formal schooling in 199 DAYS.

I have spent my whole life up until now being taught quite a bit by teachers and professors.  Now, life happens. Life begins. Not to say that life hasn't begun...it is just that now there will be no formal learning.  All of my learning from now on will be taught by life itself.  My choices and mistakes will have a greater weight because I will no longer be leaning on my parents for much support.  I am the bird finally being pushed out of its nest. I must rely on my own wings to fly.

My anxiety screams for my attention while the Lord patiently whispers, waiting for me to slow down and listen. I have been through this lesson many many times throughout my life and I can feel this turning into one of the worst...only if I let it. I need to "let go, let God." He is in control of my life and my future; there is no need for me to be anxious of anything.

I know I will be just fine for I know the One who holds me and my future in His hands.  I will not fall. I need only trust in Him.

As Isaiah 40: 31 says:

"Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength,

They will soar on wings like eagles,

They will run and not grow weary,

They will walk and not be faint."